Nov 25, 2021 |
The Gratitude in the Grief
| The Rev. Philip DeVaulThe Gratitude in the Grief
"...I am really glad I exist. I love that I get to be a person. I am profoundly grateful for my life. I don’t do too well with people parsing out what is God’s plan and what is not. There are some things that are too tender to be categorized.
Maybe this is part of why I’m so reticent to specifically not thank God for certain things: It’s not that I think my kids are wrong – I think they are right, their prayer is real and honest, and this pandemic is truly awful. I’m not thankful for it. And also, I’m thankful for the closeness they’ve developed during this time of forced togetherness. I’m thankful for their ability to tell God the truth. I’m thankful for our exhausting, painful, maddening, seemingly endless but ridiculously precious time together. Both are true.
The grief and the gratitude are allowed to coexist. One does not erase the other. God’s blessing does not dwell in ideal spaces. God’s blessing hallows the tender complicated mess of our shared life. The things that are terrible are still terrible. And somehow grace abounds. This is the mystery of the cross. This is one of the truest truths of our faith."
Maybe this is part of why I’m so reticent to specifically not thank God for certain things: It’s not that I think my kids are wrong – I think they are right, their prayer is real and honest, and this pandemic is truly awful. I’m not thankful for it. And also, I’m thankful for the closeness they’ve developed during this time of forced togetherness. I’m thankful for their ability to tell God the truth. I’m thankful for our exhausting, painful, maddening, seemingly endless but ridiculously precious time together. Both are true.
The grief and the gratitude are allowed to coexist. One does not erase the other. God’s blessing does not dwell in ideal spaces. God’s blessing hallows the tender complicated mess of our shared life. The things that are terrible are still terrible. And somehow grace abounds. This is the mystery of the cross. This is one of the truest truths of our faith."